[++ rotting away ++]

2007-03-23T01:40:00.000+08:00

MOVED
click on the 'moved' word above and relink me!
ty loads! :)))))))))

2007-03-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

2007-03-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

[21 mar]
managed to go through the day without sleeping somehow
had cca open house after school.
ours was simple and sweet.lol
after much lazing at the booth, we walked about to see the other CCAs.
the response was ok as expected.
stayed back to talk and give support to kaidi at the grandstand
thank you xinyun for the food!! *smiles*
hmm.. the track looks livelier and not so intimidating with many people on it.*shrugs*
phy test1.3 tmr.speechless.

so obvious that i missed it
or was it intentional? *shrugs*

2007-03-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

[20 mar]
was 90% dead as i rushed to school
left for dental after physics lecture.
heh. what a super duper long trip 'cos of some stuff.
headed for JEC after that to buy alex's cake.
was spoilt for choice-- all the cakes looked damn appetizing!!
celebrated alex's birthday at the concourse *smiles*
thot i was spared from caking but thanks to SOMEONE, that thot was a wishful one.lol
apologies to nic and xinyun for making ur uniform/shirt 'sweeter'.
alex, hope you like the present *smiles*
training was manageable--easy run then sprint and jog across the field 'cos there was a sports heats for the hong kah sec.
attended the maths remedial with the rest.
managed to grasp maclaurins *yay!*
stayed back to do up the stuff for tmr's open house.
omg.i just realised how warped my brain is when i'm sick.LOL
dined at banquet IMM.
pondering about the biathlon thing.
interested but..will i be able to?
ergh. i hate being a leaking tap and rudolf the red-nosed raindeer.
i want to be able to taste again..waah..

how is it that
the skies are always blue-r
with you around?

2007-03-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

[19 mar]
sneezed 97481318787772313051779 times throughout the entire day and lived [painfully] through it
hopefully i'll get better soon. *prays*
trained sit ups, inclined pull ups and shuttle runs for pc.
got back my gp tca2; lots to work on
towned to search for alex's birthday gift.
hope he likes it.
btw, thank you meiqi for the kinder buenos!! *smiles*
anws, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEX!!![in advance]
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!

we may be smiling for different reasons
but at least we're smiling at each other *smiles*

2007-03-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

[17 mar]
as usual, both me and nurul met up later than the supposed time.lol
walked around vivo before eating ice cream at swensens.
rotted with the scenic view facing us *smiles*
bade goodbye to her and met up with xinyun and shurong at macdonalds harbourfrnt.
lunched and studied till our stomachs growled.
dined at banquet vivo before indulging in ice cream at..BEN & JERRY'S!!! wOOts!
ate the marsha marsha marshmallow which was simply heavenly!!
crapped there for hours and decorated like 6 serviettes?!?! lol!
heh. contents of what we wrote will only be revealed on 1st july 2007.hehe!
stopped by marks and spencer to get some stuff before meeting up with my family.
did some grocery shopping before my mum kindly sponsored my junk food stock from CANDY EMPIRE.whee!!
ergh..why is it that the clock seems to be going faster
but my pace is getting slower as minutes pass?

you're always taking two steps forward
and i'm always taking a step back

2007-03-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

pix taken on 16032007

apple chips clan!!

waiting happily at the bus stop

xinyun nic kaidi jenn and huan shern at ben and jerry's

jerome meiqi dianah shurong and abi tired out at ben & jerry

our colourful serviette.haha!

2007-03-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

[16 mar]
was down with slight fever but managed to suppress it
met up with the rest at turf city
chatted a bit before warming up for the race
~~omg. the start sucked.~~
it was exactly like the SAA race-- everyone dashed.
managed to catch up with a bunch of people *smiles*
wonder what's my timing. sighs
oh. i've earned for myself aching calves.lol
hope to get better by tmr. teehee!
cheered for the guys before rotting.
apologies if i looked angry when u guys cheered for me. my vision was blurring then.
met up with kaidi at plaza singapura and dined at long john silver
huan shern came and off we were to ben and jerry's at grand cathay!! yay!!
kaidi jenn hs jerome and meiqi were damn funny-
they bought 2 tubs of ice cream but fought over ONE.
'cos the other one tasted..queer to most of us but not so for hs!!lol!
and abi was the pro 'ice cream cone' cutter! lol!
talked a bit before heading home.
ohya! i saw asmida and namira too!
they looked as awesome as always!! *smiles*
to all participants of the race: GOOD JOB!! train harder for the nationals but do take care!!
to xinyun and shurong: THANKS for the support and sponsored hundred plus!! really appreciate it!!
to trackist who went for the outing: THANKS for supporting nic's outing.haha! hope you guys had fun!!

in ur presence
words just get stuck
and my smiles go haywire.
i feel like a dork..
what is wrong with me??

2007-03-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

[14 mar]
absent from training 'cos i woke up late
ergh.why is the homework never ending??
hate it. feel sick of studying.
and my attention span is getting shorter by the day
wth. must force myself to concentrate.
rotting and sleeping are luxury..sighs
race on friday. report at 3pm, turf city.
rain or shine, it wont make any difference.
all the best to all competitors!!
and thanks in advance to shurong and xinyun for sponsoring us with drinks!!

the difference in the smiles
are slowly getting unapparent.

2007-03-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

bored to bits.
i WANT to sleep but cant. bleh!
was reading shurong's blog and i recalled nic's lame slogans.
as for now, he came up with:
running for our lives *cliche*
running without legs *ROFL*
running in peace *how nice.lol!*
shux. i'm laughing idiotically to myself.
will keep this list updated as he thinks of more.lol!

2007-03-13T21:56:00.000+08:00

[13 mar]
had maths tutorial and physics lecture.
gawd. lt5 became antarctica by the second lecture.tsk
helped xinyun out with her time trial
but it was cut short 'cos she injured her calve muscle.
get well soon yea xinyun?
met up with meiqi at the traffic light near the market
talked and talked at that junction. lol
lunched at kfc before heading to macs to study.
met up with shurong abi and meiqi at the sofa near kbox.
rotted and crapped before shurong abi xinyun and i took 502 to town in search of bags.teehee.
sadly, fate wasnt on our side--didnt find any that really called out to us.lol!
dined at pizza hut suntec ct before waffle-ing at gelare.
thank you xinyun for the treat!
well, actually, only shurong and i indulged in the latter.haha!
walked to esplanade and headed home.

some memorable moments for today:-
1. abi tot that shurong was looking for eggs when shurong lifted up the le coq chicken stuffed toy! rofl!
2. xinyun finally learnt what WOLS meant..hehe!
3. the pizza we received was of the wrong size but we ate it halfway and they gave us a replacement. hence we ate 2 regular size and 2 personal pan size pizzas!

Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far
Up above the world so high
Won't somebody tell me why

2007-03-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

[12 mar]
trained with abi and shurong in the morning
it was blazing hot but we made it with decent timings! yay!
maths lecture was alright though i was restless.
almost dozed off during chem lect if it wasnt for nicholas' hilarious drawing.
yes nicholas, it's very cute and artistic*with a queer look*..lol!
helped the rest record down their timing before going home.
did the plastered smile give anything away?

dumbfounded.

2007-03-11T19:49:00.000+08:00

[11 mar]
rushed to coffee bean vivo to get that couch.lol
met up with shurong to study.
completed tutorial and assignment 13[well..partially] yay!
felt hungry after a while so we decided to lunch at the chicken rice shop.
omg.a plate of chicken rice cost like $7?!?!?
we totally dashed out of the place and into banquet.haha!
abi and xinyun joined us thereafter.
managed to revise organic chem and complete the monthly assignment thing.
had dinner before heading home.
bleh. so bloated.

my feelings and thoughts have gone haywire
slap me back to reality.

2007-03-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

pix from vertical marathon 2007
courtesy of ntu sports club

team pb: jerome, hoe han, abi, xinyun, dianah

p.b.gist: nicholas, huan shern, lastrina, shurong, meiqi

smiles after climbing 60 storeys!!

to all my friends:
like crayons of various colours
each of you coloured my life
and left a beautiful masterpiece.

2007-03-10T14:29:00.000+08:00

[10 mar]
woke up on time for training.yay!
almost got lost on the way to turf city.lol
trained with abi,meiqi, qiu kun, jenn, nic and huan shern.
did the girls x-country route before slope work.
gosh. that slope really drains the energy out of you.tsk
lunched at bukit timah there before heading home.
ergh. toopid persistent irritating headache.

anyone can catch your eye,
but it takes someone special
to catch your heart.

2007-03-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

[9 mar]
i totally crapped out my gp tca2.tsk.
what the hell is wrong with me??
i need to ignite the passion to study and do well.
went for physics retest correction session before meeting up with abi,nic and xinyun to play with the telematch stuff.
lol we probably look like some crazy people running loose..jkjk!
huanshern,juncheng, jack and junjie joined us for dinner at banquet after that.
jj night was alright--got high and enjoyed myself.
snuck out to lie at the synthetic field to gaze at stars.
what an awesome sight;wish i could lie there forever.
went back to the hall to congratulate the ogls we knew before going home.
burned out and there's training at the heavenly turf city tmr.ergh.

that wave of feelings is back.
what does it mean?

2007-03-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

[8 mar]
was queasy the whole day.
taking the challenging physics paper and getting back my disgusting chem test was of no help.
dammit. i really really need to revise from SCRATCH.
super weak foundations.tsk.
did 7km(i think) run for training.
garnered a throbbing headache thanks to the super hot weather and dehydration (i think)
hope tmr will be a better day.

everything is getting blurrer.
i dont know myself anymore.

2007-03-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

bleh. nothing physics-y is sinking in anymore.
hope to pass this phy test. *prays hard*
i hate this feeling--
every single movement inflicts pain.
shaken for no reason.
ergh. i will get well.

2007-03-07T09:14:00.000+08:00

[7 mar]
constantly writhing in pain.
toopid me.tsk
shouldnt have eaten that soup when i was dubious of it.
ergh. fermented soup.
time for a change of mindset: optimism.

if you live for 100 years,
i'd want to live for 99 and 364 days
cos i dont want to live a single day without you *smiles*

2007-03-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

[6 mar]
i think i slept through all the lessons
except for maths 'cos i slept soundly during civivs.lol
ohya. passed maths. *heaves a HUGE sigh of relief*
did 2.4km time trial for training.
i totally screwed it.
my start was too slow and was distracted throughout.
what the hell is wrong with me?
why cant i perform for trainings and studies likewise??
time to buck up in all aspects.
there'll be a run next fri at turf city.
all the best to all in advance *smiles*

out of range.

2007-03-05T22:27:00.000+08:00

plagued with headache and nausea.
wonder what's wrong with me.
better get some sleep.
i shall try out "short bursts of mugging."
cos i know i can NEVER mug full time.lolx!

paths so parallel that they'll never meet.
~~or issit?~~

2007-03-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

[5 mar]
mundane day.
pc was slack-jump and ran and did incline pull ups.
maths test was ok i guess
but was bugged by the headache
hope to at least pass *prays hard*
LL was pure waste of time.
revised physics at rm105 with jack, jerome and juncheng.
met up with abi and shurong to run 5.2km (easy)
tmr is 2.4km time trial.
please let it rain!!
i'm not ready to really run.sighs.
to jerome: THANK YOU for the 'chocolate-ing' up my day!!smilex!! XD

avoidance is our commonality.
why?

2007-03-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

why didnt we get in?
sighs. crushed hopes.
maybe we should have T-physique (as suggested by nic)??lol

if you capture a butterfly,
marvel at its beauty
and let it go.
share the joy *smiles*

2007-03-04T18:57:00.000+08:00

[4 mar]
met up with shurong at macs, harbourfront
brunched there while waiting for xinyun.
headed to coffee bean,vivo after that.
studied/revised maths.
hope that the maths test tmr is pass-able
~~and brain, please dont die out on me again.~~lol

rubric cube.bleh.

2007-03-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

wouldnt it be wonderful..
if we were kids once again?
carefree of everything and anything.
at one moment we'd be angry with each other
and the next we'll be playing like that unhappy incident never happened.
i wish that would happen.

thank you for believing in me.
but it's time to move on
and leave what we dont want to remember in the past.
and i'm sorry again.

i need a hug so badly.

2007-03-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

[3 march]
woke up damn late.tsk
hence was absent from training and extra phy lesson.
went to the career exhibition at suntec
gosh.there were like 98521467777985877688 peeps?

lol. i rip this off nurulh's blog.
an insight to what we talk about.haha!
she said she wanted a hot boyfriend. then she changed her mind. she wanted hot men to surround her. not just one because men are such unbelievable creatures. to gomaluzoooki island in the middle of south china sea. there'll be 1000 hot men living on that island. the number of female citizens is only 20. citizenship is exclusive. she's the president and the other's the pm.
rofl!

2007-03-03T13:00:00.000+08:00

marina square outing after NVM.

jerome and kaidi at secret recipe, marina square.

BFF forever: nicholas and huan shern.lol!

girls at marina square on some platform.lol

2007-03-03T12:32:00.000+08:00

pix taken on the day of national vertical marathon
ty shurong for the pix!!

PBG-shurong, lastrina, meiqi, huan shern and nicholas(leader)

team PB- xinyun, abi, me, hoehan, jerome(leader)

our beautiful feet.lolx. bored before NVM.

our number tags!

2007-03-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

pix taken on 02032007 at vivo!

the 3 IMH run-aways: (L to R) id number 789, 456,123. rofl

toysrus at vivo! our 1 minute of fame!! wOOts.

shy peeps? or are they making a statement?lol!

our new found friends!!hehex.

2007-03-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

our reflections at one of the harbourfront mirrors.lol!

shurong and i at yoshi,harbourfront!

decorating xinyun's hand with words of love!!lol!

abi's pig on shurong's hand.haha!

abi's ride home.rofl!!can we hitch a ride??

2007-03-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

28 feb study session pix.
ohkay. basically i took pix only during the dinner time.lol

i think abi was teasing aunty..hehex!

aunty and her fav food of all time--fries!!hehex.

2007-03-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

[23022007 pix]

what we (sr,abi,jack, pb, jenn and i) ate during our common break in school while having a minor discussion.

at vivo's ben & jerry's, someone just cant wait to indulge in that ice-cream.lolx

and this is how we thaw/defrost our rock hard ice-cream.lol!
shurong decided that her way of using body heat will be the best mtd.lol!

2007-03-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

[2 mar]
woke up (did i even sleep??) feeling nervous
screwed up the chem paper though it was do-able.
that's it! i had it! NO MORE CRAMMING for me!!
*for tests after march hols cos i need the hols to revise EVERYTHING that is*
felt damn dejected.tsk.
lunched at macdonalds at jurong springs before rushing back to lt5 for the live telecast of the release of A's for the seniors.
saw tears, laughter, stoned faces, smiles, hugs,etc.
wondered how my reaction will be next year *prays and crosses fingers*
dismissed to the respective classrooms to get the A level MT results.
i didnt get my results but felt nervous for them.
mixed emotions filled the air.
to all that did well: CONGRATULATIONS!!!
to all that didnt: cheer up yea? one paper does not determine everything.
to pb: dont give up hope!! i'm sure you'll do better!! lets all mug tgt!!
left for vivo after that.
dined at yoshinoya.
played scissors,paper,stone with abi, sr and xy.
the loser will have to allow the winner to write anything on her hand.lol!
mine was HUMONGOUS and it really received stares.haha!
bade farewell to xy and crapped at the skypark.
[most prolly] due to the excessive stress, shurong, abi and i went mad--we laughed so much that even the most non-funny thing tickles us..lol!
and we're now newly-admitted patients to IMH.rofl!
crapped again at daiso--took hilarious pix with the stuff there.rofl!
played at the playground while the 'adults'(jerome, meiqi and jenn) talked.hehex!
screamed our hearts out and laughed non-stop again.lol!
hung out at coffee bean before we headed home,beat.
seeing everything alright is enough to make shurong's and my day!
hope there's no more obstacles coming our way..*crosses fingers*

as i gazed at the majestic night sky dotted with stars,
i wonder if you're looking up too, admiring nature
while thinking of me..(i wish!)hehex

2007-03-01T20:17:00.001+08:00

[1 mar]
nothing much happened tday.
my group got negative points for geog.
and gawd.that classroom was superbly dirty.
wth? there were grasshopper/some weird insects jumping about.ick!!
phy spa was ergh. just wrote down whatever i could remember.
kind of studied for chem while waiting for the civil thingy to start.
guess it wasnt that bad though all of us really wanted to go home.lol
tmr's chem test and i've yet to complete cramming.
i'm really done for this time.
shux. i wish there was a restart button.
to all taking any test(s) tmr and next week: ALL THE BEST!!
and to all taking your A level results tmr: GOOD LUCK and no matter what happened, you've given your best shot! *smiles*

we just keep missing each other
is that in indication to something else?

2007-02-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

[28 feb]
slept through most of everything.
had a short xac meeting after school before studying with xy,sr,abi and pb at kfc at jec.
dined at macdonalds before changing our study spot at the foodcourt.
ergh.still have loads to do!!
rushed.
hope everything is really alright.
thank you all for the comforting sms-es and thanks shurong for the chocs!!! *smiles*

just something i came across:
A smile costs nothing but gives much.
It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give.
It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever.
None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it.
Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away.
Some people are too tired to give you a smile.
Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give
so always rmb to smile!!

i wonder who determines the smile;you or me?lol.

2007-02-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

we'll shake it off
and wake up tmr
realising that everything was just a nightmare.
all will be well.

dont worry about it; i'm fine.*smiles*

2007-02-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

1 day
24 hours
1440 minutes
86400 seconds
why does time seems so short?
shux.i'm lagging behind big time.
need to stop slacking and wake up.
it's high time i revive my brain.sighs.

If I could reach up and hold a star
for every time you've made me smile,
the entire evening sky
would be in the palm of my hand

2007-02-25T22:42:00.000+08:00

[25 feb]
met up with the rest at raffles place at 1330hrs
rotted for a while before we met xinyun at republic plaza
rotted again at somewhere near the registration area.
registered and wished the other teams best of luck.
rotted at some corner of raffles x-change
reported at the holding area at 1645hrs
warmed up for like 5 minutes before we deposited our baggage.
was briefed.
1716hrs--that was our [jerome,hoehan,xinyun,abi and i] flagging off time.
cant really rmb how long all of us took to climbed the gruelling 60 storeys
but no matter what, WE DID IT!!!!
we've conquered that building tgt!! [nicholas,huanshern,meiqi,shurong,lastrina,jerome,hoehan,xinyun,abi and i]*smiles idiotically*
took a team picture and collected our belongings before going to the x physique booth.
enquired about the event and registration..
I WANT TO GO FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but we need one more person for a team.
anyone up for it??
met up with jennifer at raffles and kaidi at cityhall.
dined at secret recipe at marina square before proceeding to.. CANDY EMPIRE!!!
wOOts. played with water at the water area at millenia walk again.
lol! all of us got wet eventually!!yay!!
and i feel flat on my butt!!omg!! *covers face!!*
gazed at the stars before xinyun,shurong,jerome,kaidi,jenn and me cabbed home while meiqi,nic,abi and huanshern took the mrt.
tiring yet fun.*smiles*

everything you do makes me smile.
i must be nuts.

2007-02-25T12:23:00.000+08:00

went to east coast early in the morning 'cos my dad wanted us to work out after slugging at home for the past few weekends.
ran while the others cycled.
a lot ran through my mind meanwhile
and i guess through the run, i've found answers to some bugging questions at the back of my head.
with the water lapping my feet and sand beneath me, i felt at ease and i wish time would stand still just for that moment.*shrugs.*
time to go for NVM-- excited yet nervous.
the more you push, the further you'll get.

2007-02-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

to everyone taking part in NATIONAL VERTICAL MARATHON tmr..
ALL THE BEST!!!
We'll conquer that building no matter what!!!

i hope this knot will uncoil soon
and the uneasiness will ease itself away
and that we'll come out of this situation stonger than before.
i'm sorry.

2007-02-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

[23 feb]
checklist for today

` ate aLOT of junk food within one hour (done successfully and feeling guilty now)
` did badly for GP TCA1 (done.sighs.what happened to my resolution???)
` rotted after school (done.i dont mind)
` went to vivo with shurong and jerome to stock up our junk stock(done at CANDY EMPIRE)
` ate ice cream at ben and jerry's (done. 'cos we couldnt resist temptation)
` 'melted' the rock hard ice cream using our body heat (done. lol! i think we looked weird)
` saw something creepy(done. can ask us if u want to know)
` that picture to be seen by the two of them (done. blushes..it's really a dare..had to keep that pix for 2 more days)
` teased and got teased by the two of them (done. the latter happened more often.shux.lol!)
` wrote crappy stuff on the serviette of ben and jerry's (done. we were bored..haha!)
` pasted the beautifully decorated serviette on the wall (done. can check it out.lol!)
` bus-ed home (done. i was the last to get home!! the feeling really sux..haha!)

worried, distraught and guilt-striken.
i really hope things are improving
and that the barrier is slowly becoming non-existent after the session we had.

2007-02-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

[22 feb]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZAH!!!
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!
hated today; was super lethargic and restless.
couldnt study for phy properly but managed to read through them all.
watched the rest train while waiting for phy retest at lt1.
the retest..~~SUCKED~~.. big time.
and it was of no help that the condition totally put me to sleep:
it was bleeding hot, stuffy and humid.
sighs. looking for the re-retest.
pray for me.

2007-02-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

i feel wicked and evil.
i think i'm the one largely at fault.
i'm sorry though i know its too late.
i hope everything will smoothen out by tmr.
i dont want anything unwanted to happen to any of us.
no one should be left in the dark.
once a team, always a team.
i'm really sorry.

2007-02-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

that damn tall building that we'll conquer this sun.lolx

what we ate to drown our sorrows and the bill.haha!

sun is approaching and we've yet to do anything.

lets just go there to have fun. wOOts.

2007-02-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

[21 feb]
dragged myself to school.
was kind of late. i shouldnt have been lazy. lolx!
after school, met up with shurong,meiqi,abi,jerome,nic,jenn, xinyun,hoehan and jack
talked, gossiped and blackjack-ed[not me.i'm a noob at it.lol]
bade goodbye to juncheng and jack and left for republic plaza.
wanted to climb up the 60 storeys but it was restricted so we gave the idea up.
proceeded to secret recipe at marina square to eat and eat.
the four 'sad' people finally got to DROWN OUR SORROWS by eating choc indulgence cake, choc banana cake and brownie.lolx!
shurong, jerome and i parted with the rest to supposedly eat ice cream.
however, we werent fated to as the giant closed down.lol!
headed to candy empire at millenia walk to buy..candies!!
ate them while rotting and crapping at the waterfall at millenia walk.
coagulated with fats.ergh.
time for a long needed run.

i wonder if sticking to the status quo
would be a bane or a boon?

2007-02-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

at shurong's place and esplanade on 19022007.

2007-02-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

pix taken at jerome's place on 19022007

2007-02-20T14:09:00.000+08:00

*yikes* someone help me!!!
i've been eating LOADS of junk food and sinful delights!!
feeling sick and guilty..ergh.
and i'm back to procrastinating. *sighs*
slap me back to reality!!!

in this screwed up world,
only uncertainties are certain.
is it good or bad? *ponders*

2007-02-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

[19 feb]
finally, the long awaited trackist cny outing is here.
met up with meiqi,lastrina,jennifer,shurong, jerome and nic at tiong bahru before proceeding to jerome's place.
rotted, ate, laughed, gossiped and taunted jerome's penguin *lol* as we waited for juncheng and xinyun.
left after lunch [mcdonalds.] and off to shurong's!!
parted with nicholas as he had to visit his relatives.
played monopoly [incomplete] and chatted and ate.
had the "dont-be-sad" session for hours(?)with the usual peeps.lolx
was teased to the point of no return.
proceeded to esplanade to catch fireworks.
that was the first time i RAN along citylink [gosh.i think we attracted ALOT of attention].
caught like 4 minutes of it??
as usual, the display was spectacular.
sort of lost xinyun and lastrina but managed to find them after much calls.
felt hungry so we dined at the foodcourt at marina square.
shurong and i felt so cheated 'cos the portion was meagre??
wanted to eat cake to supposedly 'drown our sorrows' [i have no idea why] but couldnt 'cos secret recipe was closing soon and we were damn tired.
took pix to reach the quota of 108 pix today before we parted for home.
great day spent with great people. *smilex*
to shurong and jerome: THANK YOU FOR YOUR WARM HOSPITALITY!!!!
to those who went: THANK YOU for making this outing possible!!
to those who couldnt make it: it's ok.. there'll be more outings in future!!

miracles never last
'cos if they do, you'll get sick of it
and it becomes a norm.
but i pray that you're the miracle i'll never get sick of.

2007-02-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

my loves!!!
credit goes for shurong for doing this up!! *smilex*

2007-02-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

[16 feb]
went to school to watch the cny performance which lasted like one and a half hours only(?)
tgt with jack and meiqi, we walked to jurong point to meet jerome and his classmates.
brunched and rotted (and teased and 'sang') at long john silver.
man..dark clouds that threaten to pour (figuratively.duh) were over our table
left for vivo around noon.
bought tix to epic movie before walking about vivo
epic movie was so-so only;wasnt in the least funny.
dined and talked ALOT at secret recipe.
learnt a lot of stuff which cant be divulged.hehex
walked about vivo again before going home.
to meiqi and jerome: thanks for the 'outing' tday though i looked like a third party.lol! nonetheless, i had fun..esp during our get-to-know-more-about-each-other session!!hehex!
missed an online meeting to discuss the cny outing with shurong,jerome and meiqi cos i didnt wake up when the alarm rang..sorry guys!!

everytime i turn,
you're always in the spotlight
while i'm in the dim areas surrounding you.

2007-02-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

2007-02-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

moments during 3rd feb (love fiesta + nic's bday celebration)

2007-02-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

2007-02-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

are we fated to play hide and seek with each other all our lives?
to always be 'almost there' hurts.
has it faded?
or was it all an illusion?

2007-02-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

[11 feb]
prolly 'explored' all the malls in singapore
in search of that perfect v-day gift.lolx.
gawd. u so owe me a HUMONGOUS treat!!

[12 feb]
tgt with meiqi, shurong and jack, we accompanied jerome to get his v-day gifts at jurong east.
bade jack goodbye before leaving for shurong's place after that.
had a Q&A session;with us grilling jerome about stuff [which will not be disclosed]
took all of us about four hours to get MOST of the stuff done.lol!
[it's not because we're slow kay..we just laughed and talked ALOT *hehex!*]
THANK YOU SHURONG FOR YOUR WARM HOSPITALITY!!
came home late and exhausted.
slept halfway through reading chemistry spa notes.

[13 feb]
met up with meiqi, shurong, jack and jerome during the common break to settle stuff
chem spa was alright.
my yield sucked but wth it's not tested. *heaves a sigh of relief*
training was cancelled today due to the rain [and also 'cos of xinyun's super persuasive skills.lol]
went for pc. did LOADS of jumping. [felt 'frog-ish.rofl!]
went home with shurong and xinyun.
baked cookies for peeps for v-day.
gosh it was HUGE but FLAT. [i so fail at cookies.lol!]
[again]i slept halfway through completing my homework

[14 feb]
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all!!!
woke up seriously LATE and something happened to my v-day gifts.sighs.
tot that this v-day would be screwed with this kind of starting but miracles happen.
even before i reached school, i received 2 gifts that were super adorable and sweet!!! whee!!
and.. i was smiling away idiotically while walking to school 'cos of something..*guess.*
was dozing off through lectures.
gp tca was alright though i dont think i'll do well. sighs.
have to retake physics test too 'cos i failed. tsk!!!
anws, proceeded to vivocity with xinyun and shurong 'cos we had a mission.lolx
met up with juncheng and weijian before the rest arrived around 5pm or later
dined at haagen dazs and stuff happened.
we're always there for you if u need *smiles*
hung out at the skypark for a while before xinyun, shurong, jennifer, jerome and i window-shopped and the rest went home.
i'm glad that we got to enjoy this wonderful day tgt !! *smiles*
to the couples of trackist: hope u guys had fun with ur valentines!! lolx!
was too exhausted to even read the physics spa notes.
just slept [not]soundly.

[15 feb]
physics spa was alright i guess--didnt conduct the experiment though
mdm chee treated us to food that are normally eaten during chinese new year in view of the upcoming cny.
THANK YOU MDM CHEE!!!!
training was cancelled 'cos most of us were too tired and i was SUPPOSED to have dental.
talked to nic, jerome, shurong, jack and xinyun for a while before meeting up with weiru, weiling, joyceline, shuxian and zixin at jurong point.
walked abit before deciding to rot at the entrance of jurong point. lol!
tiring day.

hmm.. i just realised how many times i've used the word TIRED.
what's happening to me??
anws, i want to THANK:
-all the people who have in a way or another cheered me up and made me smile!!
-all who wished me "happy v-day" and given me gifts!!
-the trackists esp shurong, xinyun, meiqi, jerome and jack for all the craps and sharing!!

miracles.

2007-02-11T22:32:00.000+08:00

letting go is never easy
if you cant, erase me from your memory
and empty the memories that we shared together
if we're meant to be together,
we'll meet again at the right moment and place
and witness the blossoming of a beautiful thing.

2007-02-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

[10 feb]
trained at jurong lake
lunched at long john silver jurong point
towned (mostly its paragon and forum) to get v-day gifts
decayed during tuition
dinner at four seasons hotel
to everyone who cheered me up today: THANK YOU and i'm sorry if i've spoilt your day in some way.

to that person out there:
i'm no longer in your clutches
'cos i've came clean with them.
hell yeah i got an earful and was punished
but heck..at least i feel so much better
and guess what? they didnt see it your way.
they respected my decision. disappointed?
just let me go.
it'll be easier on the both of us..seriously.

2007-02-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

[8 feb]
taxing day but managed to hold out.
training was exhausting prolly 'cos of the weather.
did 1 set of 800m, 600m, 400m and 200m.
hit the targeted timing *smiles*
but there's still a LONG way to go. *sighs*
had team talk *okay. only 6 of us were there* about cny stuff.
hopefully all will be settled and not rushed.

[9 feb]
absent from school.
took the MC and medicine from the doctor.
meet the rest at queensway to buy the team bottles*jumps for joy*.
walked around ikea and got a haircut at holland before heading home.
i'm dehydrated..literally and figuratively. shux.

i wonder if i fell for you
'cos of your appearance or you
but if it was the previous,
why didnt i sense the attraction at the beginning?
shrugs. am i just appartition in your presence?

2007-02-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

[7 feb]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY (pig)NICHOLAS!!!!
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!
was super lethargic.
i think i didnt really slept through the night.
celebrated nic's birthday with cake and cream.lol.
not much caking was done 'cos he wanted to eat the cake. lucky pig!
after geog lecture, gave nicholas his birthday bash
proceeded to jurong pt with the og27 peeps.
lunched at mcdonalds, played at the playground near the frontier and dined at sakae sushi.lolx
laughter and joy filled the air *lol. sounds like some primary school composition*
and amazingly my lethargy bade goodbye.lol
headed for home after the short walk in jurong pt.
totally talked crap with zheng wei throughout the journey.lol!
to og 27: no matter what your decision is, i hope you guys will stay as close forever. *smiles*

smiling is made so much easier with your presence.

2007-02-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

[6 feb]
whee. perfect timing. perfect morning.
but i guess good things never last.
everything went haywire after civics.
shant say much..
hopefully all will work out well
underperformed during training.
sighs. i'm just too tired.
to all ogls: ALL THE BEST FOR REVELATION TMR!!

if you are the moon
i want to be the night sky
blanketing you and keeping you safe always.

2007-02-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

[4 feb]
was super tired throughout the day.
couldnt really concentrate on maths.
even if i did nothing went into my brain. tsk.
watched the soccer match and yay!!
SINGAPORE WON!!!
slept upon reaching the part on de moivre's thingy. lol!

[5 feb]
woke up late but wasnt late for school *phew*
pc was again 2.4km. ergh.
maths was _________ *just fill in anything*
confirmed + guaranteed _________ *just fill in anything*
was like half dead throughout the day so i guess that's all for today.lol

i'm flying around aimlessly
trying to find what's right.
but you're right in front of me.
the right one.

2007-02-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

[3rd feb]

checklist for the day:-

[done] attend love fiesta
[done] set up and promote stall
[done] be mischievious!!!
[done] dunk xinyun
[done] play stall games
[done] take THAT ride
[done] play laserquest
[done] eat and drink
[done] meet nurulh
[done] dunk abigail
[done] dunk nicholas
[done] get dunked
[done] walk about
[done] mass dance
[done] take the standing up ride
[done] visit juncheng's haunted house
[done] see mr koh getting dunked
[done] clean and clear up
[done] wait for everyone to meet up for dinner
[done] go to jurong pt before deciding to eat at westmall burger king
[done] eat dinner
[done] play "i have never game"
[done] dianah, meiqi and jerome to do forfeit
[done] ask for a burger with no sesame seeds on it.lolx
[done] celebrate nic's birthday with successful caking of ALMOST everyone
[done] cleaning up and listening to the birthday msges
[done] cab home and argue about that love msg xinyun received
[done] munch on chips.

tonight we remember the times that we spent here
the joy and the laughter that we shared. *smilex*

2007-02-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

[1 feb]
barely had enough sleep thanks to my nervousness??
*shrugs* all i can rmb was dreaming that i was sitting in the lt staring at everyone else.
or was it reality? lolx. i really dont know and dont care.
it's time for me to reboot for every subject.tsk.
nothing much happened though we stayed back to do love fiesta stuff.
got some things going on but we stopped halfway to continue tmr.
i'm just so bleeding drained but life still has to go on rite?

seeing you, all my problems seem to fade away.
but do you see me? i wonder.

oh ya. i guess it's time to give a shot at promoting love fiesta.
ATTENTION TO ALL!!
JJC will be having a FUNFAIR called LOVE FIESTA
it will be happening on 3rd Feb 2007, Saturday from 0900-1700hrs
there'll be LOADS of food, games and stuff to buy/try!!!
feel free to come down to give your support!!

2007-01-31T11:39:00.000+08:00

[29 and 30 jan]
nothing much happened.
boring lessons, zombie students [that's what i think]
did 2.4km for monday's pc.
bleh. 12 mins flat.hmms.
had love fiesta meetings.
hopefully all will work well.
chem pract was alright;at least i could see my yield. lol
supposed to do 4 sets of 1km
but i pulled my hamstring after the 1st set. sighs.
have to redo it some other time.

[31 jan]
unbearable stomachache. tsk.
i dont really know whether it's the old ailment or not.
but i didnt want to be 'nagged' at so i just told the doctor that i had diarrhoea.eeps.
~~have u ever tried studying with the feeling that someone punched your stomach??~~
sucks.
physics,i hate you.

every day i pray to at least get to see a glimpse of you. *smiles*

2007-01-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

[27 jan]
met up with shurong and jerome at bukit merah interchange
bought snacks for the match later on
before taking 132 to macritchie to meet up with the others.
waited for the other girls before warming up at the carpark.
wOots. everyone totally rushed to be in front and ran damn fast at the beginning.
oops.did i mentioned that it was drizzling throughout and the floor was SUPER muddy??
felt like i was running in a war of something.lol!
and my poor darling shoes [and socks] were SOAKED in mud. eek.
the run basically was alright [though my timing was off] 'cos our mentality there was "nothing more than a training"
but good job to all for completing the race!! *smiles*
to shurong:hope your leg has recovered!! *smiles*
hung out at mr ang's car to rest after the run.
took pix with the ORANGE-y umbrella: it matches our jerseys. lol!
gave the guys our support before shurong abby and i cabbed to bugis to buy flip flops 'cos i stupidly forgot to bring mine.tsk.
hitched a ride from abby's dad to kallang stadium.
thanks abby for the ride!!
met up with the rest at the south/east entrance.
omg. there was a freaking LOT of people.. in RED!!!wOOts.
the match was exhilaring [from the second half and thereafter.]!!
SINGAPORE won a sweet sweet victory. *jumps about!!*
and i know realise that there are a LOT of patriotic people out there.lolx.
took bus service 10 to suntec.
bade goodbye to jerome and xinyun before trying to get a cab but failed.
so we [kaidi, lastrina, shurong and i]called one instead.
reached home at around 0030am? lolx.
was nagged at totally but i couldnt cared less.
great outing!
thank you jerome for initiating this and buying the tix for us!!

bliss.

2007-01-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

[26 jan]
short but taxing day.
i need to work on all my subjects. sighs.
rotted after school before leaving for sakae for the lunch buffet.
chatted and ate and TEASED [especially xinyun] for two/three hours.
proceeded to queesnway to get our striking jerseys.
walked about as we helped jerome decide on the fbt shorts. lol
rest well to all participating in saa run tmr!!

keep smiling, keep shining
knowing you can always shine on me. *smiles*

2007-01-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

[24 jan]
yvonne and liyana from j1 came down for the 'training'
warmed up, did time trials for 80m and did suicide run before we all played netball.
jerome's team consist of yvonne, liyana, jack, aunty and hoehan
meiqi, abi, shurong and me were in the other team.
after an hour of play in the blazing sun, we kinda lost track of the scores..lol
rested before talking and chatting [no difference la.]
didnt do much homework as i was tired out *sighs*

[25 jan]
headache. shux.
trained earlier today.
2km easy run, 5km run and 2km easy run again.
my timing today was alright.
good job everyone for keeping it under 30 mins!! *grins*
and to xinyun: GOOD JOB for not stopping!! *smiles*
rotted before cabbing home.
time to do GP! i must be motivated!!

we're strangers
and yet your simple act of smiling
makes me feel
as if i've known you throughout my entire life.
thanks for giving me hope even if u didnt know it. *smiles*

2007-01-23T21:11:00.001+08:00

[21 jan]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATERSON!!!
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!

[22 jan]
pc was like that;maybe 'cos mr ang was there, thus the guilt.
luckily for us, he didnt take it that bad about the sat trng thing. *heaves a sigh of relief*
LL was a killer and i cant escape it. tsk.
had nwsp meeting before the track meeting.
took us one hour to decide on the shirt/singlet and cny thing
this shows how much we LOVE to talk. lol!!
seriously rotted cos i didnt feel like doing anything. bleh.

[23 jan]
chem pract was horrid again.
my yield was 0.01g??
shux. i need to improve.
but luckily we arent tested on skill b and c. *phew*
training was alright-4.8km; 2.4km fast, 2.4km easy.
2 j1 girls joined us *smiles* but they did different stuff.
played street netball with netball rules. lolx.
girls won!! wOOts.
sat at the pd block to discuss stuff before cabbing home with shu rong and jerome.

stop it with all these contradictions.
i'm in a whirl.
save me.

2007-01-21T10:26:00.000+08:00

[20 jan]
felt utterly guilty for not turning up for training
hopefully we wont get into trouble *crosses finger*
but then again, i'd rather he scold so that we wont be plagued with guilt
erm if anything happens, i'll take the blame for it.
anyways, went to school around 1300hrs for the youthsrock rara-ing.
mass danced and cheered before we left for vivocity at 1700hrs.
cheered some more as we waited for dinner.
we then mass danced she bangs to kick off the event. wOOts.
basically we got high and crazy, mass danced and cheered ALOT
met huibing, xinyun, meiqi, jerome, nicholas,kaidi and og27 *smiles*
to og27: hopefully u all achieved ur mission for ytd's outing. lol!
i guess everything worked out fine *smiles*
and i think the j1 leaders are ready to succeed over the j2 leaders [a little more tweaks will make them perfect]. *smiles widely*
GOOD JOB TO ALL [motivators, audience, performers, etc]!!

u looked through me to look at her.ouch.

2007-01-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LASTRINA!!!!!!!!!!!!
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!

today.. we[trackist]
late-d [frankly speaking nobody was on time.lol]
waited [until the security guard chased us away. haha!]
experienced heartache [when we had to part with the $25]
gluttoned [i think we drained 1/2 of their stock.lol]
celebrated lastrina's birthday [with blackforest cake]
caked [more like creamed.rofl] each other
toilet-ed [an infinite number of times.]
cam whored [to rmb every moment *smiles*]
veggied [by throwing veggie at cameraman/woman.lol]
played with food [i dunno the spelling of the game.]
talked about stuff [i think we cant live without talking.haha!]
crapped and joked alot [EXPECTED.lol]

it was pure bliss to see all of you gleaming in smiles and joy.
oh ya. chem test was neither here nor there--
it was difficult to read without the aid of my specs which i couldnt find. tsk.
to make matters worst, i blanked out during the first 15 minutes.sighs.

Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land amongst the stars.--Les Brown

2007-01-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

[16 jan]
chem pract was disappointing.
the yield for my product was tremendously horrid. blah.
was excused from pc;trained instead.
did a 7km easy run to condition ourselves to the heat.
ouch.blisters hurt.

[17 jan]
was sick and i couldnt walk properly.
absent myself from school,
wonder what happened in school.

you=euphoria.lol

2007-01-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

[15 jan]
had a new timetable which all of us LOVED it.. NOT!!!
sighs.. there's no longer a slack day
'cos there's tutorial like every single day?!??!
tsk. sad life.
blah. i hate being sick.
takes the life out of you. sighs.

i dont know if your schizophrenic nature is a blessing or a curse.
why the mask?

2007-01-13T13:19:00.000+08:00

[12 jan]
no training today.
weather was as usual.. rainy. *sighs*
conducted the movie screening after school.
the turn out was not that bad..
thank you to all who turned up!*smiles*
hopefully it'll be the same for next week.
kept sneezing and coughing throughout the night.

[13 jan]
woke up at 5am with a terrible headache coupled with high fever.
took some medicine and was hoping that it would 'cure' me.
obviously it didnt work and had to miss macritchie training.ergh.
have u ever tried reading with vision blurred and brain throbbing?
hurts.

the signs i'm getting from you are all mixed up.
please direct me.

2007-01-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

[11 jan]
trained in the rain today--cold.
did 2 sets of 2km run with each round under 2 mins 20 sec?
my timing was ick.. [oops.i just realised that i gave mr ang wrong timings.lol!]
need to work on improving my consistent speed
and need to learn to stop my asinine leg from holding me back.
sighs. i'm beat. time for chem.

every day is no doubt a challenge.
but every day,
you're there to put a smile across my face
and make everything worth fighting for.

2007-01-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

[8 till 10 jan]
nothing much happened; lessons were ok.
my irregular sleeping cycle has got the better of me.
kind of lethargic after trainings at times but nvm.
had training on 9 jan with mr ang which was easy run.
my timing was shitty. 27:49?? sad. but i believe that i can improve
hope that og27 had fun during the cca open house*smiles*

cant we just let bygones be bygones
hating is such a tiring process
and we'll reap nothing but wrinkles out of it.
smilex.

2007-01-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

[7 jan]
grandma got admitted to the hospital.
luckily this time round my parents were present so things ran more smoothly.
the doctor said that there's something wrong with her stomach *i think*
i felt at fault for i didnt take care of her to the best of my ability during my parents' absence.
~~dianah, you're such a letdown.~~
please let her get well soon *prays*
on a lighter side, i've finally received the seasports membership card.
can finally kayak! *smiles meekly.*

i wont be held down by who i was

2007-01-06T11:46:00.000+08:00

[3 jan]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIRU!!!!!
may all you dreams and wishes come true!!
first day of school was ____ *fill in your choice of word*
chem maths chem geog. sighs.
went to see how orientation was like with nicholas.
generally, the campers were quite high even on the first day.
mass dance and cheering were fun *duh.* lol!
made friends in og27, sulphur [the og i was posted to!!yay!]
it was fun trying to be a year younger. lol *if you dont get it, it's ok.*

[4 jan]
god. i so dread thurs timetable.
3 one and a half hour periods!! omg. slap me!
but i guess it wasnt so bad.
went for mass dance during the breaks. lol!
afternoon games were boring but who cares when there's water bombs??
woots! got SOAKED and dirty.
came clean with the campers. [honestly, we were nervous. lol]
left after their dinner.
it was great seeing their smiles *smiles*

[5 jan]
love fridays timetable for now!! woots.
but chem extra lesson was scary.
i am SO going to start remembering the mechanisms.lol
hung out with esther and shiela until 1400hrs before joining og 27 for kinetic warfare.
'twas fun!!- got soaked, soaped and dirty!!
played some games while waiting for dinner. *smiles*
rara-ing was different from other camps but the mood was there.
the decor was nice *smiles*. good job to the people who did it!
cheered, danced and sang.
thanked them during their supper before bidding them goodbye.
fantabulous night and people!! *smiles*

to og27 campers: THANK YOU for receiving us with OPEN ARMS and SMILES!! you guys were great and keep up the high spirit!! hope you enjoyed yourselves and made friends!! smile always!! OG 27 ROX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!

to og 27 ogls and minghao: THANK YOU for allowing us to join in you guys!!! we apologise for any incoveniences caused or being inert especially on the first day. anws, you guys did a GREAT job!!! well done!! smile always!!

to all the people who made orientation happen: JOB WELL DONE!!! it was a success so smile!!!

to nicholas: THANK YOU for being crazy and mischievious [like me. lol] enough to join in the orientation!! and thanks for joining og27!! smile!!!!!!!

this love is unbreakable
it's unmistakable
and each time i look in our eyes
i know why
this love is untouchable
a feeling my heart just cant deny
and each time you whisper my name oh baby
i know why
this love is unbreakable.

2007-01-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

ergh. time for the annual ritual.

1. slouch till back aches
2. look at the high stack of UNTOUCHED homework guiltily
3. grumble about holidays not being holidays
4. casually glance at the questions to console self that it'll be over soon
5. bury face into the INFINITE pages of notes to find the answer
6. neatly writE answers before it becomes chicken scratch.
7. get stuck [like for..ever?] in some mind-boggling questions
8. junk [as in food la.] in hope of seeing the clue.
9. hate self after seeing IT.
10.doodle [words, drawings, etc] to entertain self
11. clean up room/pack bag in preparation for tmr
12. crap out letters [lol. like some will.] and later chuck them aside ['cos i forgot.lol!]
13. miraculously complete everything [at the expanse of my sleep!!]

shux. i so need to END this ritual BADLY.
i hate the last day of holidays!!!!

to all involved/participating in JJC orientation '01 2007 ALCHEMY OF LIFE:
Have fun and keep the spirit high!!

2007-01-01T02:59:00.000+08:00

[31st dec]
to all muslims out there: SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!
nothing much happened.
helped out at the mosque and korban-ed.

i guess the dam finally gave way
[ironically] in your warm embrace.
for once the tears didnt sting;
instead it gave me a sense of release [well at least partially.*smiles*]
and the spectacular fireworks simply erased those bad memories.
making me hopeful again for the future. *smiles*
let's start over. *grins*

[1st jan 2007]
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
new year new me. [or issit?lol]
so why am i still procrastinating?
guess i better start practising sdsm [which i promise you is TOUGH!]. blah!

i think i've fallen for you. lol.

2006-12-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

woots. finally here to do some cleaning up.
the year is fast coming to an end
but there's still loads of things to do (homework*ick* and going out*smiles*)
i need to stop slacking and start MUGGING. sheesh.

[24 and 25 dec]
still sick- cldnt train.
had fun thou. *smileS*
shit. i think i ate a lot of gunk. tsk

[26 dec]
after effect of too much of a good thing.
TRIED doing some math homework. grr.

[27 dec]
ran at macritchie in the morning.
went to school to wait for zixin.
rotted with alex, jack and juncheng
lunched at kfc before proceeding to weiru's place to watch movies.
watched space jam and battle royale.
ALEX!!! YOU SLEPT!!! YOU OWE ME AN EARTHQUAKE ICE CREAM TREAT!! lol
crafted the questions, alex played the piano, we had a cushion fight and we ate ferrero rocher before we bade weiru goodbye.
THANKS WEIRU FOR THE WARM HOSPITALITY!!!!!!!!
went to vivo for movies. *smiles*

[28 dec]
supposed to help out with the 25th anniversary but something happened so ya.
dont wish to talk about it.

hurting hurts no more..i hope.

2006-12-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

i just cant take it anymore
can i just end it all?

2006-12-22T11:38:00.000+08:00

ergh. i hate being sick.
my head feels like a heavy block of metal [and yet i cant think properly.]
and i cant breathe properly [i feel like a fish out of water. tsk]
the best part is i've got no voice!!!
cant do anything right.[i cant even walk straight.wth.]
apologies to my cousin for not being able to attend his performance.
but i'll give u moral support no matter what. *smiles*
all the best!

we're so different that it feels right.heh.

2006-12-21T13:17:00.000+08:00

[20 and 21 dec]
missed training 'cos i overslept.tsk
well there's a first for everything right? lol.
met up with esther and tammy at redhill around 1745hrs.
made our way to pasir ris to meet siyun juncheng paterson and zheng rong at white sands.
proceeded to our chalet-- COASTA SANDS PASIR RIS B-07.
slacked abit before we started the bbq.
there was a LOT of food--hotdogs, nuggets, satay,crabmeat, garlic bread, marshmallow and such.
[quoted from siyun] it was the slackest bbq ever 'cos the 'chefs' sat down to cook. hee!
after much laughter, jokes, munching and cooking, we decided to play games.
siyun cyril zheng quan and paterson mahjong-ed while the rest played the silent heart attack.
patricia had to do 2 dares cos she lost-- one of which was to put a pillowcase over her head and dance while the other was to be charcoal-ed. heehee!
dont take it to heart ya? it was just in the name of fun! lol!
it started to rain so we continued playing until 0500hrs or so when everybody started to turn in.
~~many antics were seen before sleep.lol!~~
i owled through it with my handphone 'cos it was kinda cold to sleep in. *smiles*
bade paterson goodbye around 0700hrs as he left for work.
by 1000hrs, everyone was awake and had washed up so we made our way to white sands to brunch.
headed for home after brunch.
going out to watch movie later.
man, i'm going to fall REALLY sick.
oh ya, people who came for the chalet were: zheng rong, siyun, esther, patricia, wan ting, tammy, paterson, juncheng, alex, khairiz, cyril, zheng quan and me *smiles*
thanks all for everything! sp1n3l forever !*smiles*

2006-12-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

[18 dec]
didnt train 'cos of some stuff.
met up with zixin, qun li,weiru and nic at bukit batok mrt station.
bus-ed (187 i think.) to the child care centre.
met up with the super friendly and enthu kids. *smiles*
observed them while taking note of the weather stuff as qun li 'distracted' them with the story telling session.
after half an hour, they got distracted and we didnt have any more books. lol!
hence we let them played at the play corner.
ok fine, we kinda played with them too. lol!
left around 1700hrs for dinner at seoul garden. yum!

shux. i really miss you to bits.
silly fool.

2006-12-17T13:24:00.000+08:00

we're fated to be faced with obstacles in our lives
hey,we're born head first into this world.
the cuts and bruises just makes us humans.
if we hold on too tightly to the past,
embracing the future would be near impossible.
so take a leap of faith
and maybe we'll come out stronger than before.

2006-12-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

[15 dec]
met up with the rest at tampines before making our way to CSSC.
started off lesson with Raft TX Rescue which was fun but confusing at first due to the many steps.
lunched before we kayaked out *smiles*
learnt stern rudder and low recovery before we had to find a space to practise them.
the weather was erratic--one minute it was sunny, the other it poured.
luckily we were allowed to continue kayaking. *smiles*
everyone was then tested on emergency halt.
rafted up before we watched a preview of what we had to do if we were going to take up 2 or 3 stars kayaking course.
kayaked some more before we retrn to shore and disembarked.
brought the kayaks back to the club and learnt how to wash and store the kayaks.
washed up and assembled at the open classroom to receive our certs before we were dismissed.
congrats to all!
thanks yee han and kevin *pardon spelling error if any* for guiding us through! *smiles*
dined at the food court at tampines mall before accompanying jack to find his japanese book.
crapped all the way home on the mrt after that.

i need to get a grip.

2006-12-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

[14 dec]
met up at tampines mrt station at 0830 or so.
took bus service 29 all the way to changi village.
registered and paid for the course and membership.
was introduced to the changi sea sports club and the instructors/coaches/teachers.
learnt the theory part of the kayak before we learnt how to embark and disembark the kayak and capsize.
lol it was damn fun to capsize!
lunched at the nearby changi village hawker centre.
it rained as soon as we reached the sports club.
thus we learnt how to kayak on land at the open sheltered area.
learnt forward paddling, reverse paddling, sweeping (to rotate), j stroke and classic draw.
fortunately for us, the rain stopped as soon as we 'mastered' the above.
however, we had to learn rescue in deep waters which was fun but a bit tougher before we could ~~FINALLY~~ kayak. whee!
kayaked to a decent distance, raft up and kayaked again before stopping to apply all the skills that we have learnt.. especially the sweeping and j stroke.
after an hour (or less) kayaking, we had to head back to the shore to keep the equipments.
washed up before leaving for tampines mall food court to eat.
one more day of kayaking tmr.
hopefully the weather will be better.
LOBSTER dianah. lol.

i wonder if it's a case of infatuation.hmm.

2006-12-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

2006-12-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

2006-12-13T20:59:00.000+08:00

[12 dec]
met up with shu xian and weiling at buona vista mrt.
luckily we found pet lovers centre without getting lost.lol!
looked at the hamsters and dogs there.
decided on what we wanted before we waited for zixin at the food court opposite.
lunched before all of us bought the hamsters and cake mix.
baked the cake at my place.
while waiting for the cake to cool, played monopoly.
decorating the cake was LOADS of fun and laughter. lol!
parted after that.

[13 dec]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUN LI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
may all your dreams and wishes come true!!!

woke up late, feeling groggy before realising that i was down with fever.
hence, didnt train.
rested a bit after taking some medication.
cabbed to school to hand in the kayaking form.
to juncheng: thanks for helping me pass the form!*smiles*
after which made my way to bukit batok mrt station.
met up with the rest before proceeding to qun li's place.
celebrated her birthday with our self made cake
played with the gift[hamsters.]
decided to name it pig and nibbles after much thought. lol!
lazed at her place until 1300hrs before proceeding to lot 1 k box.
crooned and laughed there for 4 hours. lol!
left for movies.

i miss the penguin. *smiles*

2006-12-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

swirl.
bleak.
dark.
hollow.
empty.
(dont try to make sense out of it)

if loving you was poison,
i never want to find the antidote.

2006-12-12T09:01:00.000+08:00

[9 dec]
skipped training--as ADVICED [~~though it was more of nagging.~~ lol] by the doctor.

[11 dec]
was almost late for training.
didnt train much though the weather was nice. sighs.
went for a brief ogl meeting;
basically we were informed of stuff happening next year [besides ORIENTATION] and finalised family stuff.
FINALLY made up my decision after that and stuck to it.
felt bad for leaving my friends.
i'll always support you guys no matter what! *smiles*
do welcome us with open arms and treat us like others. lol![hopefully you guys know what i mean]
anws,met up with meiqi nic and jennifer at the shutter.
lunched at the nearby hawker centre before we parted.

being special to someone
is being yourself;
not what he/she wants you to be.

2006-12-09T16:17:00.000+08:00

[8 dec]
the weather was super off for training.
trained as much as possible though.
poor zixin had to rot alone for the nwsp.
played the reaction game after training.
lol. jack and juncheng were the unbeatable duo.
lunched at banquet IMM.
went to daiso to window shop. LOL!
headed for town to meet my sis.
rotted at the service centre at wisma atria for one and a half hour.
actually, we didnt exactly rot;
we ate and played the PSPs on display. lol!
anyways, visited the doctor-- there goes two weeks of training.
~~but i dont think light training would hurt right? hee!~~

dysfuntional tear ducts.

2006-12-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

[7 dec]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FASIHAH and my ~~[annoyingly dear]~~ SISTER
may all your dreams and wishes come true.
anws, headed to the airport in the morning to send my parents off;
they're going for a pilgrimage for a month in saudi arabia.
semoga mak dan abah diberkati haji yang mabrur..insya'allah.
went home after that to take some stuff before going to harbourfront.
lunched at breeks before heading to the playground area at vivo 'cos that's where she was supposed to have her surprise birthday party
walked around vivo while she celebrated with her friends.
left for home 2 hours later..exhausted.

does being emotionless drains the energy out of you?
shrugs.

2006-12-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

[6 dec]
didnt train much in the morning today.
accompanied alex and zixin for the nwsp thing.
'twas mundane but we got the data we needed. *smiles*
left to buy my sister's birthday gift.
headed home to rest before training endurance in the afternoon.
well, at least i got some things done.
~~can someone help to make me cry?~~

in this screwed up world, everything is relative;
nothing is definate.

2006-12-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

[3 dec]
woke up damn early, all psyched up for the standard chartered run.
had a light breakfast before my dad sent me to cityhall mrt station.
waited for the guys with abby before procceeding to the reporting area.
we lost the guys after they deposited the 'luggage' but i guess they knew that we wished them all the best *smiles*
walked about and saw the full marathon runners passing us;
their jogging speed was as fast as our running speed *gasps*
anws, the 10km run was exhilarating. lol!
due to the flat and even terrain, it was easier than macritchie run. *smileS*
loved the last part 'cos there was this lady who sprinted with me and gave me a pat on the back at the finishing line. lol!
cant recall my timing thou. one hour plus i think.
walked about esplanade before all of us were 'reunited'. lol!
rested, stretched and took a picture at esplanade before brunching at mcdonalds at marina square.
slacked at the arcade before going to giant to LOOK at glucose.
we then slacked at the esplanade bay after dropping by candy empire.
since there were still full marathon runners running, we decided to cheer them on. whee!!
it was not bad--we managed to inspire some to push a little more, get some smiles and laughter *yay!*
maybe we should sign up as runspirators [besides runners] next year..hee!

[4 dec]
decided to do light training--swimming.
~~at least my ankle doesnt hurt that much anymore.~~ *smiles*
met up with zixin and weiru in school for the nwsp thingie.
waited for quite a while before ms choy met us for a 10 mins? lol.
the portable weatherhawk thing is so compact and cute! lol!
headed to starbucks to slack a bit.

i'm tired and clueless.
hopefully it'll all make sense one day.

2006-12-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

[1 dec]
tried out middle distance training today.
was not bad; tiring but quite fun. lol.
lunched before the nwsp meeting with ms choy and ms lum.
talked about our initial proposal; it turned out to be not that bad. *smileS*
hopefully we will be well supported by the school, peers and relevant parties.
after 2 hours of chat or so, we completed the proposal, had the methodology in mind and drew up the schedule for december 2006.
i realise how hectic our holidays are.
tsk, ironic.
left for ikea; ate, crapped and walked about.
felt really tired but i cant seem to fall asleep. sighs.

i really wish i could prevent these tears from falling
but every time i do so, torrents of it will flow instead.

2006-11-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

[30 nov]
dragged myself to tuition with ~~LOADS of angst, sleepiness and reluctance.~~
thus, it wasnt a fruitful session--i didnt know how to do almost ALL the questions, forgot my mechanisms, wrote the wrong chemical formulae.
i was AMAZED that the tutor didnt blow up; or maybe he was trying hard not to.
sorry 'cher. really wasnt in the mood.
met up with nurulh, farah and faz at far east.
walked about before accompanying farah to get her hair cut.
walked some more before walking at wheelock and wisma and having coffee at starbucks.
it was a nice get together session--filled with laughter and smiles.
i love you guys!! *smiles*

i just dont know what to do with myself anymore.
show me the right path.

2006-11-30T11:13:00.000+08:00

[29 nov]
had CCC training in the morning.
warmed up, stretched, 2.4km timing, cooled down.
my timing--crappy and lousy. sighs.
i was SLOW but consistent. ergh.
SLOW. SLOW. SLOW. [annoyed.]
oh well. it's a sign to train HARDER but not the point of injuring myself. duh.
standard chartered marathon coming up in a few days time.
will try my best to run as much as possible i guess. *smiles*
anws, thanks meiqi for the bananas!!
talked a LOT after training-- perhaps for one hour? lol.
finally lunched at foodcourt at westmall.
bowled at CSC after that.
heh.i think my brain actually shut down after two throws. lol.
sorry guys, i didnt get much rest/sleep for the past few days.
slacked at westmall again to drink coffee before looking for energy drinks.
parted with the rest to look at aeroplanes.
~~sighs. i hate you and yet i miss you like crazy.~~

nightmare: a beautiful dream gone wrong.

[*++ rotting away ++*]

[++ rotting away ++]